Hello out there, how are you? I hope you are doing well and if not, feel positive energy coming your way.
Today is a busy day for me. Well, not busy as in "I am occupied the whole day" busy. I am expecting two phone appointments. One with my oncologist to find out how chemotherapy is going and how we go on from here. Also, if I can have the second cycle on Monday. The second is with the doctor who is responsible for radiotherapy. Yes, I am also going to have radiotherapy. It looks to me like they are throwing everything they have at me. Oh, what fun!!!!
And then the community nurse comes around to take my blood for chemotherapy on Monday. I have to get one every time I have chemo so that the doctor knows how my t-cells (immune system) does and if there is any obvious inflammation. I have just stopped taking a general antibiotic to make sure the inflammation I had before is gone for good. We hope. :-)
So for today, I go back to my haiku inspired poetry ;-)
Quivering air sits
Over the field
The car sits lonely
Happy Friday to you all despite everything!
Guten Tag liebe Leser (this means "Good Day dear readers") how are you doing today? I do hope you and yours are well. If not, remember, that you are embraced by my blessings.
The last couple of days have been good. I am not in pain even though the scars of the operation (I had my lymph nodes taken out under my left arm as well as two tumours out of my left breast in March ) are sometimes uncomfortable. The side-effects of the first chemotherapy session are fading, or I get used to taking care of them, so they are not a problem. Next week I have my second session, and my fears are growing again.
Strangely my biggest fear is to lose my hair which hasn't happened yet. My cousin who had cancer some years ago and underwent chemotherapy too said hers fell out after the third chemotherapy. So I still have some time to find out if I can get away with it. Probably not but hey ho, I will learn how to speak like a pirate and wear my scarfs with pride ;-) .
It will still be hard. There are challenges that test your strength and that one will be mine. And I somehow wonder why I am not so much bothered by the virus even though my husband has to work and my immune system is weakened.
How about you? What are you fearing the most at the moment?
Hairloss vs Virus
Hairloss my biggest fear, not the virus.
Feel silly in this pandemic,
but do I not have the right
to fear what I want to
on my healing?
Happy Tuesday to you all despite everything.
Hello everybody, how are you? No, you don't want to think about how you feel? That is absolutely fine. It's a lot to take in at the moment. Feel embraced though because I know you can do it!
I am a little late today with my post. I spent the day checking out Latvian musicians for next weeks "Come Away With Me Challenge" and I discovered a couple of interesting music styles. Also, I had a long conversation online with my cousin who also had cancer. She gave me some good advice. And then somehow the day was over :-)
Wind blusters outside
Seeing the wisteria
Pondering my life
Happy Friday to you all despite everything!
Hello out there in slowly opening up quarantinesphere. I hope you are doing well and you and yours are okay. And if not that you have all the help you need.
As you can imagine, I am not my full self currently. I could start chemotherapy on Monday, and while I don’t have too many side-effects, I am really really exhausted.
For me, it’s a question of getting the balance right between doing a little to no give the depression and anxiety more food than necessary and to rest. I have started to feel a bit useless, which doesn’t help.
So my strategy is as usual. Breathe. Sit connect with the ground and breathe. And complain a little here and here 😉 .
Concentrating on my breathing made me realise that I had started to hold my breath often, and I am no doing the proper old belly breathing. So that is where I begin. So let’s all come together and breathe deeply 🙂
breathe in and out now
soon you will cope much better
smell the peonies
Happy Thursday all of you despite everything.
Hello out there, how are you doing? I hope you and yours are well. I also hope you always have your favourite hot beverage to the rescue when life gets challenging. And a friend or family member too.
So what are we talking about at our "favourite hot beverage" time this week? Let's talk about blogging. Are you a blogger? Or do you read blogs?
I do both, but I am also currently beating breast cancer. For all those who don't know me yet: In January, my doctors diagnosed me with cancer. I spent February and most of March at appointments to find out how bad and where it came from because it was "unsuspected" as they said. It turned out to be breast cancer (two tumours, one of which was the primary one).
At the end of March, I was lucky to have an operation in which they took out both tumours, and my lymph nodes as five of them were affected. The fear is that the cancer has spread to other parts even though the hospital hasn't found any other tumours yet. I should have started chemotherapy last week but could not because I developed an infection. I got antibiotics and see the doctors on Monday the 4th of May to find out if I can start or not.
For a couple of months now, I am figuring out how I can beat cancer besides the treatment I get from the hospital. I assume that I have better chances if I do not give cancer too much attention, and do something I love to keep me occupied. And I love blogging. So I do it as much as I can.
You can see it on my "Bee Wordless" Blogger blog: Originally, I "just" wanted to do "Wordless Wednesday" posts. However, one of my missions is to spread some kindness, and one of my passions is photography. I try to take a daily photo and share it with family and friends on WhatsApp with a little message that I think of them. This habit made me think; I could do that on one of my blogs too. So I did, and you can find the latest here.
Another one of my passions is poetry. In 2014 and 2015, I did a project to write a poem a day, and it somehow became a habit later on. I share some of them on a fellow bloggers blog (find them here on Carol Anne's "Therapy Bits"), and they are popular. Which made me think: "Why shouldn't I spread the joy further?" Again, so I did. Now, I am not superwoman and can write daily poetry posts on two blogs. That is why I re-purpose some here on "The Bee Creates..."
But the project I am most excited about is "Come Away With Me" on my Wordpress blog "The Bee Writes...". Over the years I have taken part in several music blog projects from "Song Lyric Sunday" to "Love Is In Da Blog". While most bloggers shared the music they've always liked, I became bored and wanted to discover music from other countries. YouTube had suggested some exciting Scandinavian artists to me, which made me wonder what sort of music other countries are listening. So I started to blog about them last December on "Music Monday". Later on, I re-named it "Come Away With Me Musical Challenge". For the next couple of years, I am going to write about a musician from a different country every Monday. I'll also share some video's to get an idea about the country we visit. You can even take part with your blog if you like.
The reason why I am also on "Buy Me A Coffee" is: I would like to fund my expenses for blogging. I use Grammarly because my mother tongue is German, not English. The premium subscription is 139$ per year. I have a premium subscription for Wordpress which includes the domain for 84£ per year. Weebly is on a Connect plan which comes to 5£ per month and includes the domain. I have also invested in Iubenda security for Weebly and MissingLettr for better social media coverage which comes to 9£ per month for each of them. All this comes to 471£ per year, which is hard to fund via a part-time job.
Your support means the world to me, and I offer to write about a topic you choose in turn if you are not a blogger. If you are a blogger and support me, you can choose between the topic for a blog post or a blogpost and shout-outs about your blog.
Am looking forward to seeing you around. Happy Thursday to you all despite everything.
Hello everybody, how are you? I hope you are coping well with all the changes that have occurred. My prayers still go out to you daily and more intensively so because of the pandemic.
My life has changed even more. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in January and had an operation just before the UK was closed down. All went well, but five of my lymph nodes were affected, so the chance is high it has spread. This means I am having chemotherapy soon. It should have started on Monday, but I caught an infection and could not start yet. Hopefully, it can go ahead next Monday. But it also means I have to shield (say at home and meet no one) because my immune system will be compromised. That will be tough, but I am also grateful that my treatment goes ahead. So many cancer patients in Britain have their treatment cancelled.
To distract myself I am back to blogging intensively. You can find me on Wordpress, Weebly and Blogger. That's my news for you :-), but how has your life changed since January?
Thoughts wander back to
our normal life we lost
grey skies over us
Happy Monday to all of you despite everything. May you stay safe, kind and creative.
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