Hello dear bloggers and blog readers, how are you doing? I hope your thinking isn't stuck in negative patterns and if it is: I'll send you good vibes along.
I have been a little quiet on this blog. We had my husband's children around and I did some soul searching concerning my last post. Remember? I wrote about the narratives that we tell ourselves.
Mine is still "I can't" and "I won't" but this blog post seems to have started a re-think process. And while I was mainly offline tending to family and life, I was watching my automatic thoughts and pondering what I need to do to create a positive change here.
But I suspect sometimes you don't have to do anything. You just have to recognise what you think and then let it go. The new grows by itself. Isn't that reassuring?
As for coding news: there aren't any. Haven't taken any time to concentrate on the form I am working on for the last week. I guess I got a little scared of my courage to try and learn to code at my age and with a charity. But I guess I get there eventually. So how do you deal with negative thinking patterns? Do you have a trick up your sleeve how to turn it around?
Have a lovely midweek & happy coding and self-caring.
video credit: Rowena Tsai via YouTube
Hello dear people of the blogoverse. How are you doing?
I hope life is treating you kindly and if not rest assured my thoughts and prayers are with you.
We all have stories we carry with us. We also all have a story to tell but do we do so? Do we tell our truths?
My truth at the moment is that I want to do. I want to code, sort the garden, write blogposts but there is this force that holds me back. I can't explain it in any other way. It's like invisible ropes holding me back from moving forward. I used to have this feeling every single day of my life. It was awful. Since I left my job and had time to heal it doesn't happen every day. I have times when everything just flows and I can be very productive. But those other days come too and I experience them more intensely because they are not the norm anymore.
Then the narrative starts. The negative narrative that tells me "I can't do things", "I am not made for this life" and "I am too tired, too exhausted, too whatever..."! For so many years I work on changing that narrative. I work with postive affirmations that obviously have brought some change. But I feel I should be further ahead. I shouldn't have these days when I can't get into the rythm and create that life that I want to create, learn the things I want to learn and just simply live.
At the same time I think this expecting of myself being further ahead and having to "do" all the time isn't right. We need down time and this need for down time might not always come on days that suit todays society. I do believe that we all have our own cycles of being productive. And I wish I could just accept mine as it is because I think I would get further ahead with everything if I'd do.
Noone has shown us how to, haven't they? We are shown to earn money, be there for others and be busy but not how to care for ourselves and calm down. It is so sad. My experience is to fight against those invisible robes doesn't work. It makes it worse. No matter how inconvenient it is and how far behind I am with a project I have to listen to this voice and use the time to stand still and ponder who I am and who I want to be. Maybe accepting these cycles are a part of self-care. Do you feel the same?
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May you have a restful day if you need it and may you be in your truth!
Hello out there! How are you? I hope life is treating you well and if not that someone is around to give you a bear hug and serve you ice cream or your favourite beverage.
I am a bit insecure.
I am a blogger since 2009. I have blogged on many platforms from Blogger over Tumblr to Wordpress both the free version and the paid.
I have started and stopped several blogs and feel that doing another one is just a waste of time. But I love to blog. I also love to find some kindred spirits who are out to learn to code even though they are no spring chickens anymore. And I feel that "The Bee Writes..." isn't the right place for writing about this coding adventure.
It makes me sad, that I do not believe in my ability to juggle two blogs and make them a place where people can meet, and find something that connects them. Lately, I have realised that the main reason why I don't seem to be able to develop a proper "career", or stick with my blogs is my low self-esteem.
So many years of therapy and I am still stuck in this old story of "You can't", "You won't" & "You are not good enough". I wonder if that will ever change. Do you feel like that sometimes? And what do you do about it?
My current course of action is just to keep going. Maybe Mr Edison was right with finding 10, 000 ways that don't work until it works. That is my hope. It is also my hope that Mindfulness will get me ahead.
Last year I was introduced to "Mindfulness ~ A Practical Guide to Finding Peace in a Frantic World" which helped a lot in calming my worries down. But you know how it is: You incorporate something new into your life and then it just slips away again. That's what happened to me. Or maybe I just need to do an upgrade to my mindfulness practice.
Do you believe in synchronicities? I do. Guess what I found on Tuesday in the library: "Every Breath You Take ~ How to Breathe Your Way to a Mindful Life". Rose Elliot writes in her introduction that she had trouble with Mindfulness until she discovered that the secret is breathing. Since she incorporates mindful breathing exercises many things have changed. I'll review the book in the "The Bee Creates/Writes... Newsletter" in August.
I found breathing exercises always very helpful and hope that this little book will give my self-esteem a boost. Especially as I struggle rather badly with the Free Code Camp projects I tasked myself with. Last week I finished the Tribute Page successfully. Not that my code is brilliant. Or at least I think it isn't. Wasn't courageous enough yet, to ask someone and get some advice.
But I am determined to master the art of asking for advice in the near future :-) . Until then I am working on creating a survey form for this page. Played around for an hour or so this morning but my poor mind got stuck in a thousand questions that needed answering and in the research to find out. Maybe that is the way to get somewhere.
For now, I leave both blogging and coding behind and get myself into the kitchen. The husband and daughter from another mother will need something to eat soon. Cooking is a good activity to let go of all worries. Someone once wrote you can "cook up a solution" this way. I like that idea and assume that my mind goes into creativity mode when I let go of my worries and concentrate on something entirely else. What do you think?
So, that is it for today. Here is a video that shows how a slightly younger woman than I changed her career from teaching to coding with a course. You can find the link to the YouTube location of this video underneath.
video credit: Financial Times via YouTube
Have a wonderful day, no matter what you have set out to learn and don't forget:
happy coding & self-caring
So, after a couple of months of hiatus here on Weebly I'll give this blog another go.
Since I stopped blogging here I have discovered an interest in coding and am learning via a charity called "Free Code Camp".
They offer free lessons in which you have to finish tasks to go ahead to the next topic and at the end of each chapter there are several projects to create so you can put what you learned into practice.
I managed the first project which you can find here but realised I wanted to share my experiences. Also, I realised that I would like to work as a freelance front end coder but self-care is very important for freelancers so I came full circle with my interests and projects.
This is why I chose to blog here again and hope I can make something out of this blog. It'll be informal. It'll be curious. It'll be fun. I am looking forward to meeting you all.
Happy Coding & SelfCaring
Video credit: Dylan Israel on YouTube.
The video is from 2015. Now it's FreeCodeCamp.org not FreeCodeCamp.com